Found out today that a friend who I trusted had been dishonest with me. Turned my world upside down.
And now - writing my blog - am slightly at a loss for words, as I don't want to share too personal about this.
So before I sat down at the computer, I took pen and paper and prayed. I will share with you what I wrote. Yes, it's personal. But I need to put it here. Because maybe it isn't just for me. Maybe it is also something someone else needs, right now, at this very moment.
I will preface by saying that I started by asking for specifics. Help me to let go of... etc. Then I realized there was a better prayer for this moment. And I wrote this.
Please love me.
I surrender all to you.
I trust you to know what is best for me in this moment, better than I know myself.
Thank you, God.
ps - maybe being turned upside down and letting go isn't such a bad thing... check out the video on Facebook here. That's my daughter, Anna, a year ago. Pretty exhilarating.
Thoughts, dreams, questions.